"I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear..." (John 16:12)
We have many questions and, often, so few answers. Some of them are not coherent, coming from an agony so desperate they feel more like accusations than questions. Where is God? What is he doing? Why isn't he doing more and more often? How can he choose to live in this mess?
There is much we need to know and much we want to know, especially at a time like this. On an evening of very many questions, spoken and retained, Jesus says to his disciples, "I have much more to say to you..." There's no intention to exclude them from knowing, from understanding. Rather, he intends to speak, to communicate, from the depths of God's mind to theirs, even with all their limitations.
But the time wasn't right for those disciples: "I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear..."
I wonder how you'd have reacted to that? How you react in applying these words to yourself?
Perhaps you think Jesus is suggesting fault on the disciples' part - that he had more to say and they really ought to be able to hear it, but there's a lack in them. They're just not mature enough and they really ought to be by now. Because that's how you see your own relationship with the Lord - if something isn't happening now, isn't clear now, it's always because of a deficiency on your part. If there's blame to go around you're the natural home for it; you're a low-cost dumping ground for shame.
Or maybe your elemental response is that any talk of not being able to bear it means he's got bad news for them. News that is so devastating they couldn't take it at that moment. Because isn't that how it is in this world - we're always waiting to be told the calamity we feared most has now happened?
The first response is deeply sad and betrays a terrible insecurity. That really isn't how things are in life with Jesus as Lord. All lack is not down to you. Yes, the disciples could've done better many times but this isn't about their deficiencies. Whenever Jesus says something oblique it isn't to skewer you in your failures.
As for the second response, we need to remember that anything and everything that's bad in this world is only and ever penultimate; it isn't the final reality. We need to hold onto that.
And hold onto it with this in our hands: what they could not at that point bear was the fuller truth about Jesus. That all would be well and all manner of things would be well. They simply were incapable of holding within their hearts and minds the weight of glory that was going to be unveiled in the plan of God for the healing of the cosmos. The radiance of Jesus and the splendour of God's wisdom in all he would accomplish that would lead the apostle Paul to utter a memorable "O the depths!" (Rom 11:33)
Being told they were unable to bear the truth was not Jesus finger-pointing, nor was he alluding to sinister outcomes. Holding back what they couldn't then bear was a mercy, not a withdrawal of privilege. It was a recognition of their current frailty.
But of course that wasn't all Jesus said. He told them they couldn't then bear it but the Spirit of Truth was coming and, when he comes, he would lead them into all truth. He would usher them into that fuller sight of the glory and ways of Jesus, the radiance of the gospel. The light of the knowledge of God's glory displayed in the face of the Messiah (2 Cor 4:6).
And there lies our own encouragement and hope. Not that we, now living after Pentecost and being indwelt by the Spirit and having the whole Bible, have all the answers to every question and have scaled every peak of biblical insight. We simply don't and haven't. But we are invited to grow, to mature, through the work of the Spirit. Asking him to open our eyes to more of the glory of Jesus and to the ways of God that are higher than ours. To be our teacher through these days when we feel like amateurs, newcomers to walking by faith not by sight; growing us to bear more of the weight of the glory of Jesus.
That, increasingly, our experience would be that "we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord who is the Spirit." (2 Cor 3:18)
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Come, Holy Spirit, like a dove descending,
Rest Thou upon us while we meet to pray;
Show us the Saviour, His great love revealing;
Lead us to Him, the Life, the Truth, the Way.
Come, Holy Spirit, every cloud dispelling;
Fill us with gladness, through the Master's Name:
Bring to our memory words that He hath spoken;
Then shall our tongues His wondrous grace proclaim.
Come, Holy Spirit, send from God the Father,
Thou Friend and Teacher, Comforter and Guide;
Our thoughts directing, keep us close to Jesus,
And in our hearts for evermore abide.
Robert Bruce
